Really?

I mean really.... do you ever have days where you feel like the only expression on your face would be a big fat ??????????????

this is mine now.

Did Tank really just have diahrrhea AGAIN in my front room? Really?

Did Clint really reach to rub my belly while I was driving? Like I am a Damn Buddha?! I don't know about you, but while I am sitting down the last thing I want anyone to be rubbing would be my "belly".

Immediately after did Clint REALLY point out that I had a beard?? Really?

Did I really get caught up in the motions of the day and try to feed evryone in the house lunch twice? Yeah. I did. We went out to eat for lunch today. And now it being 2:30--- I panicked trying to get everyone fed like I was slacking--- the girls hardly ate, looked a little disgusted. And when I asked Clint what we were eating... He looked at me like a hog and said "you're kidding right? you aren't really hungry are you?"
To which I replied... "well it's 2:30 why wouldn't I be hungry yet?"
Again in disgust he says "We ate Barros 2 hours ago!"
Me: "Oh Yeah. Oh Wow I feel stupid."

To which I now feel ashamed and embarassed that I still struggle with eating. Not just the lack of eating or wanting to be thin---- No. My realtionship with food is just off. I don't eat just when I am hungry. I look at the clock to determine my hunger. Stupid. I piss myself off. Ughhhhhhh.

But I am grateful for a great morning at church--- seeing 2 friends get baptized together, my kids loving life, an interesting date night last night. Dinner at The Keg=AMAZING. Shutter Island= confusion!

Life is good. Even though without question I am the one who has to clean up the diahrrhea everytime....

*guess I will hit the sit ups now.... to keep that buddha in check :)

This is the song I am in love with for the moment....